It’s Quadrille Monday at DVerse, and this week’s word is “linger.” Much as I like that word itself, I used the word “malinger” and hope that’s okay. If not, I can write another. 😁 This is also inspired by today’s MVB prompt.
When depression’s weight is on me,
When its tyranny wants to keep me
From leaving my bed let alone
This house, I might get accused
Of malingering — and so I am feeling
More alone, with many not realizing,
Despite shame,
I’m innocent of this.
So well done!
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This one really touched me. I describes those feelings so well. The extra weight and shame when told you malinger and should just get over it.
May I re-blog this?
Much love ❤️
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I used to have anxiety and panic attacks so I can understand a lot of this
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That depression is a heavy burden.
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Very intense and full of emotion! Well done!
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Beautiful description of an affliction many deal with – a lot of times in silence. Well done.
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Powerful words and excellent use of “malingering”…take care of yourself.
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You could try to explain but it would never be enough. I’m sorry those in your sphere do not understand. {{{{HUGS}}}}
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I realise, as I have been there. Feeling that others are judging you and judging yourself only add to the pain. We need to be kind to ourselves in these moments!
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So powerful. I can imagine there is quite a feeling of being judged.
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Ah, love the sideways take on the prompt, and how you invoke this feeling.
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R.,
Depression’s weight – and shame: you capture its raw inescapability very well, sadly, very recognizably.
pax,
dora
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Being held responsible for something beyond our control can be so debilitating. So well expressed.
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God. I feel this.
💔
David
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Malingering- does that mean malignant lingering? Truly I don’t know the word but if it is, it seems a hateful way to describe the true nature of depression. This one really stuck with me as I work thru my own and that of others close to me struggle. 44 words just isn’t enough sometimes. Thanks for sharing.
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It means to feign illness in order to avoid duties. It could very well be a mash-up of “malignant + lingering,” though!
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