I don’t usually take part in DVerse’s prosery prompts, but when I saw today’s, coupled with Fandango’s one-word challenge, I just had to write something! The “prosery” line is, “Reading what I have just written, I now believe,” and it is from Louise Gluck.
Staring at the blank sheet of paper in front of me, pen in hand, I try to think of some “positive affirmations” that don’t reek of insincerity.
“I love my body.” No, not true at all.
“I appreciate my body.” Not as much of a stretch, but still a load of crap.
“There are good things about my body.” Hmmm…. Next.
“There might be good things about how I look.” Well, maybe, but I don’t see them.
“I am willing to believe that there might be good things about how I look.” It seems pitiful, but that I can accept, and it’s a step. One painful, tiny step in the journey.
Reading what I have just written, I now believe that recovery is maybe, at least a little bit, possible.